dark & light

It’s the feast of St. John of the Cross today. John was a 16th century Spanish mystic, saint and doctor of the Church.  This all makes him sound very distant and pious, but he is really very down-to-earth, and his life and experience can teach us a lot about life in December 2019.

I met John on a retreat at Kopua monastery 15 years ago. I had heard of him before then but knew little more than his name. On that retreat one of the monks gave me a little book of reflection on one of John’s poems, The Living Flame of Love and the retreat became for me a powerful experience of God leading through darkness.

When many people hear of John and his friend Teresa of Avila they might think of the “dark night of the soul”. That sounds pretty bleak and unwelcome, but through John’s reflections on the dark night I have understood how to live more fully and fruitfully through the painful moments of life.

For John & Teresa dark night was simply the absence of the felt experience of God. You and I know what that feels like. It not a good feeling and it’s especially difficult when we’re not experiencing joy in other parts of life either.

Many people survive life by medicating painful symptoms in the hope of escaping the darkness, ignoring the fact that a feeling of darkness often serves some helpful purposes:

  1. to awaken us to the fact that we have confused our priorities and have become too occupied with what is not essential.
  2. to help us to understand the beauty and breadth of human relationship since life’s darknesses serve to lead us to greater intimacy with God and with others. Without shared darkness friendship soon becomes superficial and unsatisfying.
  3. as a reminder that our greatest human desire is not to live in the floodlights of success but to love and to be loved in every moment, including and especially in our darkness.

If you were to ask John or Teresa whether they preferred the dark night or the light of day what do you think they would reply? My thought is that they would say ‘God is in the light, and God is in the darkness so whatever my feeling, the reality is that God is present and that’s all I need’.

In an era when many are more likely to listen the world of nature than the words of the saints, you might find it helpful to consider the cosmos. God created night and day and they are both not only good but necessary. A city that never sleeps might be ok for a week’s vacation, but we soon yearn for a break from the heart of the sun and the quiet of the night so that we can get some rest.

There’s a saying of a priest who has been a great mentor for me: Luigi Giussani reminds me daily that the circumstances I am in, whatever they are, God allows me to be in for my maturity.

In my healthiest moments I have no desire to revert to immature thinking and behaviour. Give me maturity of faith any day which means I welcome anything that will bring me greater maturity, even if it comes through darkness.

A concluding thought from John:

“God has to work in the soul
in secret and in darkness
because if we fully knew what was happening,
and what mystery, transformation God and Grace will eventually ask of us,
we would either try to take charge,
or stop the whole process.” 

An Invitation:

  • Become aware of any darkness that you experience in your own life and know that Jesus is as present and active in your dark as in your light. Invite Jesus to give you the eyes to see in this darkness, and know that difficult days and weeks are an opportunity for greater maturity of faith in relationship with Jesus who is the only real light.

The life of John of the Cross at this link.

John of the Cross quotations at this link.

The Impact of God.  Iain Matthew

10 Responses to "dark & light"
  1. Thank you, John. This is such an important part of our journey with Jesus.. Something is taken away so that something greater can be given. Ground is plowed to produce new growth,. However we describe it, , the process is not comfortable. We may call it the way of the cross; but it is also the way of resurrection and Jesus is always with us to show that it is all about spiritual growth.

  2. Loreena McKennitt’s spiritual classical music soothes and blesses my soul. The mystical nature of her poignant song, “The Dark Night of the Soul” reflects the heart of St John of the Cross and the nature of his crisis in his journey toward his union with his Creator God.
    Thank you for your motivational reflection this morning, for anointing us with the light of truth and freedom. +

  3. The letting go and moving into a Retirement Home has brought many different changes.Your words this morning have confirmed my decisions Thank you.

  4. Good morning Father

    Some real challenges here for deep thinking – thank you.

    When it is all boiled down, the old adage “God never gives us more than He knows we can manage.”

    Sometimes in those dark times I am amazed at what God thinks I can manage and am capable of.

    Like any parent He challenges his children to be more than they ever thought Possible. Our courage and tenacity, when we find ourselves in “the dark,” comes from the knowledge that no matter how desperate we are, or discouraged we may feel, His hand is on our shoulder, guiding us always.

    Blessing to you Father John, you are, as always an inspiration.

  5. Thanks john. I think of your reflection in the context of the great commandment about loving God, and neighbour. Faith therefore also is an act of the will. There is nothing casual about the Christian life, it requires constant attention and effort. I am comforted by the thought that even when those efforts are weak and burdensome, or compromised and full of doubt God honours the intention of the heart and the will to keep trying

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