“I AM” not I was

Mar 20, 2018

Many people who received Christian baptism as children today have little contact with the worship and life of their faith community. Their absence is a great loss for the church.

But the greater sadness is that many of these people think that they are also distant from God. This is not true. God is always very near to every person.

Those who see themselves on the periphery of the church often speak of the church with grateful nostalgia naming their Christian up-bringing as a solid training ground for a good life. Many are thankful for the moral code they received in their religious education. They are often generous in forgiving the imperfections of imperfect religious teachers. They live today with a sound sense of social justice often learned at the feet of those who lived the social teaching of the church.

But the fact is that too many of these good people speak of their connection with the church as a life that they have outgrown. While they have a positive nostalgia for the church, their faith practice might be little more than keeping a moral or social code or following an historical wise man called Jesus Christ.

The section of the Moses story in today’s first reading follows the encounter between God and Moses at the burning bush. Moses was surprised that God would choose to speak directly to him. Moses knew that God had always existed but dwelt in the distant heavens. Now Moses was hearing the voice of a God who was choosing to be accessible to people, a God who was taking another step in being available to those who sought relationship with him. “Who shall I tell the people that you are” Moses asks God. “Tell them I AM who AM” replies God.

If you have the chance to share this story with children you can find a very helpful five minute video for children at this link.

In today’s gospel reading we hear Jesus name himself “I AM.”  He is speaking of himself in the present tense, not I was or I will be but I AM.

Perhaps it’s easy to believe in a God who lived only in the past or whom we might encounter in the future.

I might be able to talk easily about who I myself used to be or who I hope to be in the future, but we often struggle with the present reality of ourselves and the present reality of God.  Perhaps this is why when God is speaking to Moses or to the Pharisees he emphasises “I AM.”

We might be aware of the presence of Jesus with us in the past, but this is not enough for us today. We can’t live life happily today looking only in the rear-view mirror. The one who is preoccupied with what is behind can not move confidrntly into the future and misses the grace of the present moment. Without a present experience of Jesus in the midst of the joys, hopes, griefs and anxieties of our lives today we are left feeling alone.

Whatever our feeling, even if we feel that God is not present, the fact remains that God is with us.  You might be able to look back at a past struggle, a time when you were even uncertain of God’s existence let alone God’s presence, but with hindsight and grace you can see that even then God was present at a level much deeper than your perception and was supporting and leading you. You were not alone then, and you are not alone now. God is: “I am with you.”

An invitation

Take a moment to call to mind the fact that Jesus is present with you in the reality of your life today. Jesus is not I was or I will be, but today for you and with you Jesus is I AM

Even if you do feel as though you are distant from the church of your baptism, remember that this is not a problem for God. The most important thing is to give Jesus an opportunity to rekindle his relationship with you today. Connection with the church may come later, but that is not the primary thing today. Today, simply know that Jesus is with you. You are not alone. Ask Jesus for the life and the love that you need.

This well known “Footprints” poem reminds us that even when we think God is distant, God is always the present I AM


  1. A rabbi once told me that our translation “I am that I am” is inadequate because the original Hebrew is about growth. “I Am the I Am that is always evolving” is a better translation. This is truth for me. In the Church, the “Isness” of God grows within each one of us. It is not a static state. Do we dare to believe that we too can become burning bushes of God’s presence?

  2. Thank you Father John for deep reflective reminders.

  3. When I was a child, I worried that my parents were doing sooo much for someone who may not exist. I went to my Dad and told him. He wisely said to me, “Does God ask you to do anything bad?” I thought, no…… He said, “If you decided to follow God, would you be glad at the end of your life?” At a very young age, I CHOOSE to be on the side of GOOD…. I believe that God the Father is unchanging, timeless, and all good.

  4. I enjoyed this reflection and footprints is one of my favourite reflections.
    Your post today makes me think of the importance of evangelisation and the importance of sharing our faith with families who have become distant from Church.
    Life is not easy and to know God is with us always is important.
    Marcus Brown (a Maori presenter) said in form 4, a teacher spoke to the class.
    He said I am you and you are me. This is powerful speak. With God we can do anything.
    Parents are searching for a faith development and they really want their children to have a Catholic Education. They can feel the presence of something special.

  5. Everytime I think of HIM, all my worries & anxiety were gone. I say, I put my trust in you, Oh Lord. Thank you Fr John for making my day beautiful. Reading your reflection upon waking up makes my day happy & complete.❤️From: Philippines

  6. I think many of those that have grown distance to the Church, apart from the obvious such as the entanglement of sin and feeling that is reason to withdraw, is the lack of “reason to believe”.

    Not so much major “reason to Disbelieve”, (though competing philosophies are giving more and more of that than in many earlier generations, but “Reason to believe”.

    Facts to align with faith. That leaves them with the rationale as presented in the comment by Mary above of how she felt that her parents zeal may be in vain. And even her father’s response of it “not being bad” (hinting but not saying “even if God is not real”).
    These deflections and rationalisations for continuing in the church and faith don’t disarm the idea that despite it “not being bad”, and “Seeking good”…. if it simply is not sure truth, people will not see fit to expend their lives energy on that when there is so much more else to do.

    For this reason I consider it VITAL to provide from multiple angles “Reason to Believe” as we are implored to do in the Bible.
    In the so called “Age of Reason” that has dismissed God as a mere notion to facilitate our lives being framed in a way in which we can approach the world positively, we need to tear down such notions with fallacy wrecking facts and reason to believe.
    Theological, Philosophical maybe, but also Practical, Tangible and Scientific.

    We used to be the masters and disseminators of Truth! That position has been largely stepped back from.
    That is not becoming of those that Worship a God and saviour that said;
    I AM THE Way (Not a way or he who knows the/a way)
    I AM THE Truth (Not a truth or ……..)
    I AM The Life (Not a key to life or a source of or inspiration in Life).

    We need to give Reason to believe the above. Good Smart and Convincing Reasons.

    We need to leave abandonment of the faith to being a clear decision to dispense with God for love of sin.
    We need to oooze convincing reason every time we are squeezed on our faith.
    We need to arm the regular people with such reason to believe…. not appeals to string along faith that is based on a “better than none” thinking. But Reason that emphatically convinces us that it is the indisputable Truth and the Only WAY!!

    I am sure there is much that can be done on that front. We can not Prove all things, but we can prove that our source is indisputably True and the Author of Truth and THE TRUTH! Like wise the Life and The Way.


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