It’s the feast of Thomas the apostle today. He’s always been a favourite of mine, the patron of adult faith. here’s what I mean.
Thomas is often referred to as the “doubter” since he was not present when the risen Jesus first appeared to the other disciples, and refused to accept the resurrection news as fact simply on the basis of his friends’ testimony.
It was all very well for those others; they had already encountered the risen Jesus personally. They had seen Jesus’ gaze of love with their own eyes, felt his mercy and heard him speak words of consolation with their own ears. They had received first-hand experience of the risen Jesus. In fact all Thomas was asking for (to experience the risen Jesus himself) was the same experience as the other apostles already had.
Thomas was not doubting as much as seeking; he was expressing the desire of one who truly yearns for adult faith. Healthy doubt leads to robust questioning and searching. It is this process that develops faith that is rooted in God and rooted in reality.
Children believe things simply because the adults they trust teach them. But as a child grows beyond toddler-like naivety into adolescence, healthy questioning becomes par for their course. In this process, the child becomes the adult who believes not simply because of the word and experience of others, but because they now know for themselves.
Too often Christians who grow to maturity in so many other aspects of life remain as children in matters of faith. Our motivations, shame, and guilt might have more to do with childhood fears of punishment and desire for earthly rewards than with a mature and adult relationship with Jesus Christ. Such “faith” is vulnerable to every negative influence.
It is important to note that many young children and teenagers do have such an adult faith since their awareness of the presence of Jesus is the vivid and lively relationship at the centre of their daily lives. It is often more difficult for older people to let go of the attachments that the world presents as essential, and to relax into the loving embrace of Jesus.
While it is true that we are the children of God, we often imagine ourselves in this relationship as pre-schoolers. It is more helpful to think of ourselves as the adult children of God. Before my parents’ death they were often asked what their children were doing now. They did not begin their response by explaining that we were now in our 30’s and 40’s! Yes we were still their children, but we were adults, and that nuancing makes a huge difference.
Thomas gives us the method for moving from childhood faith, to the “child-like” faith of an adult:
- Don’t be shy about doubt. We all doubt at times. There is no need to live in a pretence of belief. Talk to a good friend or seek wise spiritual counsel.
- Engage in conversation with Jesus. You might begin “I don’t even know if you are there, or if you exist, but if you can hear me then help…”
- When you do sense (perhaps not by touching as Thomas but our sense is not limited to five physical awarenesses) that Jesus may be present, do not hesitate to speak to him as your God, with awe and humility. Thomas in this moment was the first to profess “My Lord and My God”.
Father John I would like to express my appreciation for all the Inspiration you have brought to the FFF.
I was very sad that I could not meet you & others at the Dowse for coffee & I imagine a very enlightening afternoon. May God Bless you in your Mission
I dont doubt,but when life
Gives big challenges I often think,
” what is the meaning of
Everything? Why the big life exam?
Why didnt God make us perfect
In the begining,how HE’
wanted it,and us, to be,?
I look forward to receiving
More FFF: GOD BLESS
YOU LOTS FR JOHN
Thank you for your lovely writing, I have had a lovely time this morning sharing my thoughts and prayers also hymns on the radio with Jesus, it has been a wonderful time and then I see yesterday’s email from your self. Thank you.
Peace be with you.
I have had a week of joy this week.
Listening to your Retreat last weekend in Taupō –
being a Thomas in certain areas. Growing up (becoming an adult) in my Faith, has given me a “kick in my Step”.
To share with like- minded people the joy of encouragement – learning to have a deeper relationship with God.
How blessed is that.
Praying for you.
Thank you Fr John.
I was very happy to meet you at St Peter and Paul Mass yesterday. God bless your lovely singing voice.